Backstory: I broke up with my girlfriend and when I shared the news with my mom, she accused me of being a chronic masturbator!
Love goes through a lot of changes and seasons. Did you once have romantic feelings for her? To whom do you compare her? She is a gem, a treasure of a person, albeit not a Christian.
Honestly, and this is hard to write, I saw a stack of your mail at Tom’s when you were on your long trip. I saw the magazines, and no real woman could ever measure up – nor should they ever have to or be compared to a model, a prostitute, or other woman who has allowed herself to be subjected to the lust of strangers in return for money. It breaks a woman’s heart to see her man’s head swivel at the image of another woman – an image he likely tucks away in his mind to masturbate about later.